going back to home

As title.

I m scared

I am scared.
I think there is no way I will get 36 for CT1 exam. Especially in the night, more scared, and I miss him. I wish so badly he can not here, beside me and hug me to sleep..because I cant sleep.

Exam-ing

Er..Is this title English correct? Somebody help??? Nic, Bt, salmah?

Anyway, I am having few exams to go. “Few” means 5 papers if I am lucky to pass all subjects.
Ermm, Could be more than that.
Air ticket time, need explanation to mum, sorry to inform my best friend need change or cancel her post-honeymoon trip to my new house, need pay more rental and stay here longer...so on and so for. Hmm, pretty butterfly-effect right?

In the end, I am upside! Because he accidently ignore me and my present, and there is few seconds I think he don’t love me anymore, seems what he used to like some parts of me, now turn to hate more.
I try to argue, try to defend my feet, but been ignored!
Sad for myself, didn’t really completely open to him, he not yet knows who I am.